Who Am I?
I am in the middle of the 40 day surrender fast and I read a lot about Jesus Christ and how God talks to the author and shares what he sees next for her.
The fast is full of scripture.
I am extremely spiritual not very religious.
I grew up Catholic (have the uncle for a priest sort of catholic) I married someone Jewish and delve into the religion.
Both religions felt like itchy garments, I can wear with an undershirt yet they still itched.
IN 2009 I found recovery in a 12 step plan and found a relationship with my Higher Power. Yet, I hid it because I didn’t want to seem disloyal to Judaism and I didn’t want to look like I was too woo woo.
Today, I heard God say: Create a Jewish surrender fast.
God who am I? I barely know anything about Judaism and I am not Moses.
God: Yes, Maureen you are.
See, Moses believed he was not good enough to lead the Jewish people out of Egypt much less record and pronounce the 10 commandments.
I fought with God.
“Is this just another idea you are gifting that goes no where?
“I don’t know the Torah. How can I help the Jewish people without having pithy quotes from the Torah?
God: Maureen, I know that you have a lot of ideas and I want you to create all of them in due time. For now, it is time for you to create this for the Jewish people.
God: where the hell do I even start?
2020: you start with 2020. Remember when you saw that preacher who shared that he didn’t know how Jewish people could be happy because their scripture (Old Testament) was all about God being mad?
First, let that go and second; Hindsight is 2020: hindsight of how the world has been behaving; the hate, anger, greed and toxicity
People are abusing themselves with SADness: sugar, alcohol, deteriorating foods.
People are treating each other with such cruelty
People are refusing to take any personal responsibility for their parts in this cruelty.
The Jewish people need you Maureen, They need what I have to share and you are the only one who can share it.
They need your ability to see both sides
They need your kindness and empathy
They need to know how to embrace me in and outside of the Temple and the Torah.
God isn’t this just like the surrender fast I am reading? What can I possibly share that has not been shared already? Isn’t this just Juda-fying the Christian version?
No What I have to share through you will change those Jews who choose to fast.
God who am I to scribe this?
Maureen, You are my muse.
How do I get started God?
Tomorrow, Maureen you will get started tomorrow for today, surrender it to me and share this with those who are